Implications of Low self Esteem.

Sometime ago,I mentioned how I was so not confident in myself and had great low self esteem and how I couldn't speak in public because I felt so ugly all the time and did not want to hear it anymore.This had me in my seat all the time.Well,I'd tell you this was not good for me at all as I lost so much which I'm still in the process of regaining.
I'd like to share with you what happened sometime ago.Due to my struggle with self esteem, I never spoke in class.I'd sneak in and out of class and prayed everyday not to be noticed. Questions would be asked in class, I'd know the answers to the fullest even with analogies,but I'd prefer to keep quiet. I lost so many marks to this,especially in my first and second years in the higher institution,but it did not bother me since I thought I wasnt hurting anybody,little did I know I was hurting myself. One day in school,we were asked to collect some documents from a lecturer and so,we went in one after another.Well,it got to my turn and I stepped into the office,the lecturer was so surprised because he had not seen me before,meanwhile I had attended all his classes from my first year.Long story short,two other lecturers,whose courses I had taken,came in and also didn't know me and they were all wondering if I was an actual student(lol).Anyways,one lecturer walked in at this point and said he knew me because he had taken interest in my first name, Pamelagold and so didn't stop till he knew who went by that name.After the entire scenario, I thought about it, how can I graduate and only about 3 lecturers could vouch that I had indeed attained higher learning?I was almost like a ghost student, not because I didn't know what to say or how to say it,but because I was scared of what people would say about me. No matter what I do now, I can't regain the marks I lost,but all I can do is share this story to help someone NOW!
Everyday,I wish I had let go sooner than now,maybe I wouldn't have lost so much.So,to everyone going through the bullying and fear of being called ugly, I think its time to let go in order for you not to regret like I'm doing. Those words really do hurt but not as much as when you realize all the opportunities you lost to them. Its time to get up and face the world. But,don't just face it,build it and don't forget to spread the word of beauty and love! Thank you!
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