I'm over it. #iambeautifulcampaign

"she's not so pretty"..those were the words I heard for a long time. For years, wherever I went, people kept whispering about me, they said I wasn't as pretty as my friends or siblings. Someone even asked if I was adopted one time(lol). Anyways, I endured these comments for a long time,although they hurt, I didn't dare say anything because I accepted their comments. This made me paranoid, hence, wherever I went and heard people whispering, laughing or looking at me, I felt it was all about my "imperfections",my "ugly" face. Well I spent so much time wishing I could be someone else, but now I've realized there could only be one me, so, I'm the best and most beautiful version of myself. I wrote this piece(below) when I began to accept myself. I hope it inspires you too. Thank you!

I Am Beautiful

You said what you said because you thought I was still small,
You thought I wouldn't remember so you went on with your rude storm..
I was 5 and you was way older 
Buh you didn't mind, it even made it easier.. 
But something you need to know is, I can't ever forget that day,
The day you wickedly made me this way.
You didn't stop,you continued to say more,
More that hurt and stung with every word,
Words that felt like I was being pierced and cut into little bits 
These bits that feel like they can never be one again.

 You made me so scared that I didn't look in the mirror anymore, like "what's the point?? it doesn't matter anyway..
No matter what I do, I'd still be ugly either way".
Life felt so hard...suicide seemed almost mild
But then, I didn't want to experience hell, so I prayed to be hit by an oncoming van.
Every word you said left on me a scar..
Ahh yes, you don't see it because it's on my esteem
You left me in a broken state, 
Almost unfixable.

 Well, I'm grown now, 
Buh your words still hurt deep down.. 
But I'm leaving everything behind
Because your words don't define my kind, 
It says nothing of the girl I've become, 
I'm happy with all of me, 
I no longer feel deformed..
I lost my confidence yesterday, 
But today, I've gained more esteem.. 
This girl is nothing short of unique.. 
This girl is the most beautiful one I've seen.. 
I'm beautiful..its not up to you to decide.. 
I'm beautiful, I'm a bundle of designs.

-@o.j.o.m.a_

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